...and realize you have no friends, life almost seems to come to a screeching halt. I have friends that I've met through TarValon.net, but they aren't close by or I don't have enough money to go drive an hour or more away to see them, or they're too busy with their real life and I don't want to intrude. But I called a girl last night, someone I used to consider my best friend and no one could ever change that, and I'm crying and I feel like I just wish that I'd wrap my car around a tree and just die...she couldn't give me 10 minutes of her time. I'm probably selfish for wanting that, but when she felt awful and needed me, I woke up early one morning a 4am when she called and talked to her until 7am and made sure she was ok and went to her house the next day to bring her some breakfast. She just...I mean I guess I will just have to take the hint that she doesn't want to be my friend anymore. That's the only thing I can think of. I suppose it's ok. We haven't hung out since Junior year in high school and I'm a college sophomore now so things change, people change. I just wish I had good enough friends that would answer any time of night and just listen to me bitch when I feel that terrible. Then again, I just wish I had friends in my area.